May 11th, 2005

Current Music: GREEN DAY. THIS ENTRY IS OFFICIALLY IN ALL CAPITALS Subject: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Time: 09:17 pm Current Mood: jubilant

I'M SEEING GREEN DAY ON AUGUST 10TH AND JIMMY EAT WORLD IS OPENING!! AHHHHH LIFE IS GOOD.

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May 2nd, 2005

Current Music: Beverly Hills- Weezer Subject: arrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhh Time: 04:10 pm Current Mood: annoyed

i'm convinced someone is trying to make my life a living hell. i feel like anything i do will SOMEHOW offend them and their little fragile emotions. and you know what? i'm sick of it! i'm trying to be patient and understand where these emotions are coming from. i'm trying to just put rude, mean, selfish comments aside but i dont know how long i can do that. i think my head is going to blow off. we all have a lot going on right now. we are all sorting thoughts out in our heads. so guess what? no one's life is going to be perfect. if your life isnt always like walking on clouds with a lollypop in one hand and a puppy in the other, suck it up. i'm sorry i'm being mean and blunt about this. there really is no good way to deal with anger and i figured this is a lot better than exploding at someone. gosh, i thought the drama was supposed to calm down senior year. in other news, this weekend was mostly taken up by work which is kind of upsetting because daniel was home and i probably saw him for a total of one hour tops. but i got to go to a movie with andrea, sharon, becki and erin and it was a lot of fun. i wish we could have had time to actually hang out because i sped from work to the movie and then we all had to go home, but it was still a lot of fun. we saw a lot like love and it was really good. i've seen it twice now lol. i'm a dork like that. i went on thursday with some friends from work to see it too. this is weird, i feel like i'm recapping my week in reverse. haha. so anyways...tomorrow is ask random question day and it should be pretty entertaining. but i'm heading out. adios amigos.

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April 27th, 2005

Current Music: 525, 600 minutes... Subject: been a while, eh? Time: 03:32 pm Current Mood: groggy

If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often, please post a memory of you & me. It can be anything you want, be it good or bad, just so long as it happened. Then, post this to your journal. See what people remember about you.

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April 11th, 2005

Current Music: the hidden track on Rascal Flatts Time: 06:18 pm Current Mood: calm

today kasey asked me how life was and we both agreed on "meh" or some sound to that effect. kasey, help me out with how i would go about spelling this profound response to this question, because it was so perfect. :) ha. i heard a quote today that i loved. "is it a coincidence that after you fall, you have to go on your knees to get back up again?" i think not. i've decided that i've put my spiritual life on the back burner for too long, and any troubles that i'm going through right now are most likely to remind me that i need God. i dont know if this makes any sense, but it has a lot of meaning for me right now. in other news, 3 days until NYC (!!!!), and less than 2 months of high school left (!!!!!) whoo hoo! i couldnt be more excited. also, my brother emailed my mom in list form and ended with seventh, love, dan. it was really funny and i thought i would share. dan i hope you dont mind. haha. on the topic of daniel, i was thinking today how excited i am for college kids to come back home. i cant wait to have dan and mike and tess around for the summer. i miss them terribly. weekends home just arent enough!

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April 7th, 2005

Current Music: Incubus - Mexico Time: 05:27 pm Current Mood: drained

i have a question for the general public. if you had to, in words, define love and what it means to you, what would it be?

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April 6th, 2005

Current Music: some commercial Time: 04:06 pm Current Mood: good

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY: 1. Kelly 2. Kelly Jo (or Kelly Ho if you're mexican) 3. whatever name joe likes to call me THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD: 1. smileys77 2. cinnamon somenumber 3. parachutes1024 THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. my left elbow 2. my knee sockets 3. the back of my head THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE: 1. i'm 2. a 3. mutt THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: 1. being hit by a train 2. throwing up 3. being unsuccessful or being "successful" in a job i THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: 1. chapstick 2. food 3. other people THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW: 1. a lime green t-shirt 2. some sweet jeans 3. undies THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP: 1. trust 2. humor 3. comfortable-ness TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order): 1. once i killed a bug with dish soap 2. i think i have TMJ 3. i backrubs THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE (or same ) THAT APPEAL TO YOU: 1. backs. lower, upper, everything. 2. eyes 3. smile THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: 1. singing. piano. anything music related 2. watching american idol 3. just chillin yo THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW: 1. not go to work in a half hour 2. take a nap 3. make it start thundering again THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: 1. i 2. have 3. no idea THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION: 1. england 2. italy 3. seattle THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE: 1. madison 2. isaac 3. noah THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 1. live somewhere else for a really long period of time 2. record a cd 3. skydive THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY: 1. the majority of my friends are guys 2. i wear mostly t-shirts 3. i lift weights THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A : 1. I would die without lipgloss 2. i like playing with my hair and dying it and stuff 3. i love the whole, eat ice cream and watch chick flicks thing THREE CELEB CRUSHES: 1. Jake Gyllenhall 2. Jake Gyllenhall 3. Jake Gyllenhall well that was fun. off to work my friends!

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April 5th, 2005

Current Music: Fast Cars and Freedom-Rascal Flatts Subject: long time, no update Time: 04:31 pm Current Mood: content

well hey there. i hope you all had a wonderful spring break and i would tell you all about mine but who really wants to know and it would probably sound something like this. "laid out in the sun, went out to eat. repeat." but it was still fun nonetheless. here are 4 things i really dont like: 1. how there is no cure for senoritis 2. that the word love means nothing anymore 3. that many people are upset like 75% of the time. myself included i guess. gr. 4. when colleges call you to "ask how your college search is going" well to make up for that, here are 38 things i DO like: 1. that feeling you get after watching an uplifting movie 2. when you wake up at like 4am and realize that you have more time to sleep 3. getting texts :) 4. my little brother. sometimes. well and my older brother too, but thats nothing new 5. random, useless facts 6. my mom 7. psalm 23 8. old navy socks 9. giving someone a present 10. spooning 11. hot chocolate. especially after sledding. they so go together, dont they? 12. analogies 13. really really bubbly baths 14. nag champa incense 15. having a full tank and a clean car 16. crying 17. laughing 18. seinfeld 19. American Idol 20. Billie Joe Armstrong's voice (green day) 21. people who listen 22. camping and realizing how little you need to not only survive, but be comfortable 23. showers with no time limit 24. being home alone 25. fog! i LOVE fog 26. sunsets 27. singing in bathrooms 28. mashed potatoes 29. country music 30. Sister Hazel 31. teal and lime green 32. my dog. erica- NO COMMENTS :) 33. playing piano 34. jokes 35. jokes in general 36. cotton balls 37. when you start laughing and cant stop and last but not least.... 38. diet cherry vanilla dr. pepper

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March 27th, 2005

Current Music: stand by me - oasis Subject: Happy Easter again! Time: 03:35 pm Current Mood: cheerful

well lets see. whats new in kelly's life. i've worked a lot the last few days, which is a majority of the reason why i havent been writing very much. it actually hasnt been too bad. its been a little slow because of the games on TV that have been keeping people at home, but fun people have been working. and sometimes i get the best customers. there are some very cynical, scary older people, but sometimes i get the sweetest people. i had a table yesterday and it was an old couple and they were working on sunday school plans together. they asked me about college next year and we talked about easter and christians and the man handed me this card that had a little excerpt about forgiveness on it and says, "here, i want you to have this." it was really sweet. later that day however, i had 3 way oversized for heinemann's, grumpy tables. when a 4-top is usually the max we get at a table, i freaked out when i had an 8-top, a 6-top and a 5-top at the same time. fortunately for me, my co-workers were very willing to help and so i survived. you know what? i'm going to target. i'll finish this entry later. :)

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Current Music: guster Subject: Happy Easter Time: 02:33 pm Current Mood: cheerful

Basics .: x full name- Kelly Jo Shafer .: x height- 5' 4''? i think? .: x hair color- honestly, i dont know. i think a really mousy brown .: x real hair color- brown .: x eye color-blueish greenish grayish .: x birthday- July 27 .: x age- 17 .: x grade-12 School .: x name of school- Pewaukee High School .: x grade- Still 12 .: x nicest teacher- Zindler .: x meanest teacher- hmm..i really dont have any. i do have a dumb one though... .: x best class- free period .: x best subject- english or choir .: x worst class- government, ap bio or spanish .: x worst subject- any math. thats why i dropped it .: x what do you think about PE or athletics? not my forte but its ok Love- .: x taken or not taken? not .: x taken by who? n/a .: x for how long? n/a .: x why do you like him/her? n/a .: x is he/she older than you? its really too bad i cant answer any of these Favorites .: x drink- with alcohol: mike's hard lemonade :) .: x without alcohol: diet cherry vanilla dr pepper .: x ice cream flavor- chocolate .: x smell- boy smell .: x sport- ha...making my vocal chords dance .: x channel- fox (american idol) .: x celebrity- jake gyllenhal .: x memory - oh gosh...mexico. everything about it .: x show- american idol and everwood. by the way, what happened to everwood?! .: x animal- puppies This or that .: x roses or daisies- Roses .: x cell phone or AIM- neither for too long .: x mall or movies- movies .: x tv or computer- computer i think .: x cat or dog- dog for sure! .: x rock or rap- Rock .: x water or milk- water. preferably dasani .: x shorts or pants- Pants .: x dinner and a movie or walk on the beach- if its summer, definitely the beach. but im not that big of a sap, so thats like a one time thing .: x blue or pink- neither. teal and lime green .: x color or black and white- color! .: x friends or family- dont do that to me .: x baseball or basketball- um. i like the atmosphere of baseball games more .: x coke or pepsi- coke! .: x bright or dark- bright -->Last things Last thing you... .: x ate- french toast with almond and banana .: x drank- water .: x saw- my ipod :) .: x watched on tv- american idol .: x saw in a movie theater- hitch! i loved it too .: x wanted- the frog out of my throat .: x needed- To go to the bathroom .: x twisted- what? .: x listened to- guster! .: x squeezed- my hands into fists just right now so i had something to say .: x yelled at- tommy for being hindu..long story .: x punched- probably joe or michael .: x taped- taped as in a show? or scotch tape? whatever, i taped american idol on thursday .: x graded- what? Last time you... .: x cried- i think about 5 days ago .: x kissed - hmm..wouldnt you like to know... .: x smiled- probably like 5 minutes ago. i smile a lot .: x ate- about 2 hours ago at brunch .: x changed clothes- about one hour ago .: x slept- um, last night? .: x worked out- dont remember .: x played a game- hm. too long. thats kind of sad .: x went to the mall- no idea .: x went to the movies- joes b day .: x ate fast food- the night i went to dans..thursday i think? .: x went to church- This morning .: x talked to someone- tommy -->Random .: x Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. Write down what it says: "an employee gets a compliment. a wife receives". a max lucado day by day book .: x Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? i hit my wall halfway there .: x What is your favorite movie currently? donnie darko!! .: x Without looking, guess what time it is: 2:25 .: x Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 2:47 not bad .: x With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? my ipod singing sweet songs to me .: x When did you last step outside? What were you doing? like 10 minutes ago to move my car so tommy could play bball .: x Before you came to this website [started this survey], what did you look at? itunes .: x What are you wearing? a tshirt from mexico and sweatpants .: x Did you dream last night? nope. and its a good thing cause i dreaming .: x When did you last laugh? church. or brunch actually .: x What is on the walls of the room you are in? wallpaper (that i ) .: x Seen anything weird lately? a mirror .: x What do you think of this quiz? a super way to spend a sunday .: x What is the last film you saw? ladder 49. sooo good .: x If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? tommy an ipod so he would stop bitching about mine .: x Tell me something about you that I don't know: man, after this intensive of a survey, there isnt much. hmm...i love being called sunshine

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March 25th, 2005

Current Music: jack johnson Time: 04:46 pm Current Mood: nervous

hmmm its kind of been a while since i updated. i only have like 10 minutes before work, but i'll see how much i can squeeze in. wednesday was the choir concert which went well. beforehand me and erica finally had free time *gasp* at the same time! she curled my hair and it was fun because i really never do anything y like that. after, we loaded erica's car with a bunch of hyper kids and headed over to taco bell. we got to meet michael's new and it turns out i was in guys and dolls with her in 7th grade! what a small world. anyways, she was very nice and we all approved. then we watched american idol but it was essentially the exact same show as tuesday but whatever. i got to hang out with silv today. it was a blast; its always a blast. ok, let me think of some funny things that happened.. 1)silvia didnt know that movies were in alphabetical order at blockbuster 2)ok i dont really know how to explain this one without a diagram but i'll try. she also thought that the street you were on was shown on the street sign that ran perpendicular to the street you are on. so basically she thought that the street name changed every block. 3)she didnt know what a frosty was so me and erica made her turn around on like a major road to go and get one after we had an enormous breakfast/lunch ok i have to leave for work in like 5 seconds. last time i worked a fish fry i almost died. yikes, wish me luck...

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March 22nd, 2005

Current Music: nothing Time: 05:57 pm Current Mood: gloomy

you know when you have that feeling that there is a big ball in the gut of your stomach? i have that right now. since my plans for the night fell through, i've been sitting at home, pacing from my computer to the piano and back just thinking, and now i'm in a really, really bad mood. i dont know what it is, i just have a really hopeless feeling in my gut and its just getting worse the longer i just sit here and think. writing usually helps me feel better, but i dont have any words. im just sitting here, feeling worse and worse about myself and i really just want to curl up in a ball and go to sleep. the only thing that seems to be easing my mind is the max lucado book in front of me. i guess when everything else in your life seems to be failing you, God is always the exception. here are some excerpts Here are some God-given, time-tested truths: -love God more than you fear hell -make major decisions in a cemetary -when no one is watching, live as if someone is -succeed at home first -dont spend tomorrow's money today -pray twice as much as you fret -God has forgiven you; you'd be wise to do the same. an example of faith was found on the wall of a concentration camp. on it a prisoner had carved the words: i believe in the sun, even though it doesnt shine i believe in love, even when it isnt shown i believe in God, even when he doesnt speak i try to imagine the person who etched those words. i try to envision his skeletal hand gripping the broken glass or stone that cut into the wall. i try to imagine his eyes squinting through the darkness as he carved each letter. what hand could have cut such a conviction? what eyes could have seen good in such horror? there is only one answer: eyes that chose to see the unseen. for some of you, the journey has been long. very long and stormy. and you are tired. its hard for you to see the City in the midst of the storms. the desire to pull over to the side of the road and get out entices you. you want to go on, but some days the road seems to long...let me encourage you...God never said that the journey would be easy, but he did say that the arrival would be worthwile. consider the earth! our globe's weight has been estimated at 6 sentillion tons(that has 21 zeros) yet it is precisely tilted at 21 degrees; any more or any less and our season would be lost in a melted polar flood. though our globe revolves at the rate of 1,000 miles per hour or 25,000 miles per day or 9 million miles per year, none of us tumbles into orbit... as you stand...observing God's workshop, let me pose a few questions. if he is able to place the starts in their sockets and suspend the sky like a curtain, do you think it is remotely possible that God is able to guide your life? if you God is mightly enough to ignite the sun, could it be that he is mighty enough to light your path? if he cares enough about the planet Saturn to give it rings or Venus to make it sparkle, is there an outside chance that he cares enough about you to meet your needs? we are thirsty. not thirsty for fame, possessions, passion, or romance. we've drunk from those pools. they are salt water in the desert. they dont quench-they kill. "blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness..." Righteousness. thats it. thats what we are thristy for. we're thirsty for a clean conscience. we crave a clean slate. we yearn for a fresh start. we pray for a hand that will enter the dark cavern of our world and do for us the one thing we cant do for ourselves--make us right again. sometimes i wish i could skip this part and go right to heaven.

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Current Music: goo goo dolls Time: 04:22 pm Current Mood: restless

Why do we do what we do? why do we take blatantly black and white and paint it gray? why are priceless mores trashed while senseless standards are obeyed? what causes us to elevate the body and degrade the soul? what causes us to pamper the skin while we pollute the heart? our values are messed up. -Max Lucado

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March 21st, 2005

Current Music: coldplay- we never change Subject: mmm...coldplay Time: 05:40 pm Current Mood: disappointed

I wanna live life and never be cruel and I wanna live life and be good to you and I wanna fly and never come down and live my life and have friends around we never change, do we? we never learn, do we? so I wanna live... in a wooden house I wanna live life and always be true and I wanna live life and be good to you I wanna fly and never come down and live my life and have friends around we never change, do we? we never learn, do we? so I wanna live in a wooden house where making more friends would be easy I wanna live where the sun comes out

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March 20th, 2005

Current Music: my chemical romance- helena Time: 09:06 pm Current Mood: aggravated

today was an interesting day. and by interesting i mean not very good. it started out fine; church was good. joe came and there was a pretty good message, finally off the topic of money which always makes me feel kind of uncomfortable. then i got home and went with my dad to get us all new cell phones! it was all very exciting. we took all of our own phones and looked at all the new cool camera phones and were thinking about which ones we would get, and i was thinking about how exciting it would be to have a phone that might, just might get service, and ringtones that i dont despise, and a battery or a charger so my phone isnt d half the time, and then we went to talk to the verizon man only to hear....you'll have to wait two more months. i know its just two more months but i hope by me building up the suspense about my phone you can understand how sorely disappointed i was. oh well. so then i came home, ate lunch and had a couple bites of the coldstone cake that has been in our freezer for too long before throwing it away. then i went to work. my stupid idiot poopface manager was there but i stayed out of his way so everything was fine. however, i'm thinking that the previously mentioned cake was expired and i had to waitress with horrible pains in my stomach all day. i only made like 25 dollars in 6 hours. but my two favorite cooks were working, and actually two of my other favorite waitresses were too. so it probably would have been really fun if my stomach wasnt attacking me. one of the cooks, chris, who is hilarious told me today when he was carrying something heavy that he was ripped like a gorilla. in all actuality, he's really tall and lanky which made his comment even funnier. so after a long day at work, i was so excited to get into my car and go home. but no, no, no..that would have been too easy. my power steering died and my car almost didnt start. so i had to wait in the burger king parking lot and wait for my dad to come while some creepy worker from wong's wok next door looked like he was going to pull a ggun on me. finally he came and we took the maz to the mazzy dealership and came home and here i am. so i think we are going to have to get rid of my mazda and i'll get the van. thats right, i'll probably be driving a van all summer. well, if nothing else, it was an interesting first day of spring! and happy birthday becki!! i heard an analogy the other day that explained why we need a Savior to forgive us and cleanse us of our sins. if there were two kids playing in the mud, they wouldnt be able to clean each other up; they would need someone clean, someone pure. and thats how it is with our sin. interesting, hey? whenever i cant sleep, i end up turning in circles from my right side to my stomach to my left side to my back...and so on. and soon enough, i've wrapped my sheets around me until i'm one big insomniac burrito. well i've got a brit lit test to study for. i hope erica comes home soon. goodnight friends.

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March 19th, 2005

Current Music: the killers Subject: smile like you mean it.... Time: 02:05 pm Current Mood: excited

the killers are coming to the rave on may 7. whoo hoo!!!!! :) let me know if you wanna go!

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March 17th, 2005

Time: 09:51 pm

You scored as Fall. You are FALL. You appreciate all that you have, and are willing to share with others. You are a friend in the truest sense of the word, and can easily focus your attention on those who need you, placing yourself on the back burner. You make sure your responsibilites are met before you allow yourself \\\\\\\'free time\\\\\\\'. </td> Fall 90% Summer 85% Winter 75% Spring 40% What Season Are You? created with QuizFarm.com thats cool, i like fall. but what the heck is the picture. whatev, im actually going to go do homework now. this is kind of addicting though. goodnight!

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Subject: this is so fun Time: 09:41 pm

You scored as The Notebook. You have strong, passionate love like the notebook! </td> The Notebook 92% Charlies Angels 33% A Cinderella Story 25% Legally 17% Mean s 8% What Chick Flick is just like Your Life? created with QuizFarm.com one more and THEN i'll do my ap bio

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Time: 09:37 pm

You scored as . You're a person aren't you? Being with you is probably lots and lots of fun. You're probably totally pimpin' too. Good for you, good for you. </td> 80% Cartilage 80% Earlobe 70% Dirty 60% Nose 60% Nipples 60% Labret 60% Belly Button 50% Lip 40% What Are You? created with QuizFarm.com my computer blocked out what i got. grr. well, at least you can tell from the picture. :)

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Current Music: THE AMAZING BOULEVARD OF BROKEN DREAMS AND WONDERWALL SONG Subject: Happy St. Patty's Day! Time: 09:10 pm Current Mood: annoyed

well well well...happy st. patty's day all. hope you had a fun day full of green! :) i know i did. well lets see, whats new. i really dont have anything all that interesting to say. today i took a nap on free period and it was really a good one. i havent taken a nap in a long time and it felt super good. buuuut, i did miss the killers video which is really disappointing. but the rest of the day was good EXCEPT for swing choir. i really dont like swing choir. it has its good days and the people are mildly amusing, but im getting really frusterated. allow me to explain. we have to choreograph 3 dances for new york. me, dan, and tanya did one of them. i taught most of it and we all put a lot of time into it. i absolutely despise teaching the dances, but hey, we all have to do our part, right? so i did. day after day of a strange form of called teaching a dance. so the other day, another in the class asked me if i could help her with "this one part". well, they had a group of 6 to make up the dance like weeks ago. but, since im a control freak and i always feel like if I dont do something, it wont get done, i said i would help. so i came in for resource with her and mr. o and started over. we started making up the dance from the beginning. so then when class time comes and its time to teach (keep in mind i told the other that i WOULD NOT teach) we get in the class and i ended up teaching b/c i knew it. so im going crazy b/c i really dont want to take over this one because its not mine. so today, mr. o asks their group if they have any new choreography AND HE LOOKS AT ME. i told him i didnt realize it was my responsibility because-oh! its not! long story short, i'll be spending my friday afternoon at school making up swing choir dances. and then everyone will tell me that they are confident enough with the dance to teach and i will end up teaching. i'm gonna go crazy. and im not even being a nice person by doing this because im bitching about it now. sorry about that, but i really do feel a lot better now. ahhh, writing is so therapeutic dont you think? on the bright side, tomorrow is friday and im going to see the ring two...ooo scary. i dont know why i see scary movies because deep down i them! but i HAVE to see them. theyre kind of like the sun...you know its going to hurt your eyes after looking at it, but you cant stop looking...ok that analogy didnt really work out. but i tried. if you didnt look at my current music, you should. i got goosebumps alllll over my body after listening to that song and it makes me so happy. BOULEVARD OF BROKEN DREAMS ANNNNNND WONDERWALL IN ONE, FANTASMAGORICAL SONG. seriously, it couldnt get any better. danny made me a CD with it on it and it made my day. it has lots of really awesome songs. danny is the best :) he makes me happy. green day comes in may i think. i really wanna go. would anyone be really g ho about going? let me know. i cant decide if i want to go yet. so i could either do my AP Bio or take a fun quizie. youll just have to see in my next post. ;)

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March 15th, 2005

Current Music: nothing Subject: you better bend before i goooo, on the first train to mexico... Time: 03:30 pm Current Mood: indescribable

as of right now, erica is probably in mexico on her way to the camp. the camp i spent a month in this past summer. the camp that, if i could transfer my life right now to any other place, i would go. im really happy that erica is going. shes going to have a blast. if you didnt know why she is there, shes there for izak's wedding. izak is one of the camp leaders down there. hes probably the funniest, friendlist guy youll ever meet. he is like a big brother. but anyways. im glad that erica is going because she is going to have a blast, but...im pretty much dying of jealousy. i seriously cant put into words how much i want to be down there with everyone. they are my second family-we experienced EVERYTHING together. ethel is going to be there. jeremy is going to be there. gina, kelly jo, tara, josh, izak, chewy, adrian, macaya, tanya, oscar, edi, jona... ahhhhhhhhhhh i wanna go back so bad. i miss it so much. i miss being able to wake up in the morning and go sing with josh. i miss having breakfast and honestly be happy to be awake at 7 in the morning because i loved seeing them so much. i miss sitting on the ledge of the chapel and just sitting in the quiet and reading my Bible. i miss the worship band and just singing worship songs like there wasnt a care in the world. i miss going house to house and being streched beyond belief out of my comfort zone. i miss talking to the mexicans at their houses and hearing their stories. i miss group prayers. i miss the amazement i felt every time the language barrier was forgotten and communication happened without words. i miss the heat, the bugs, the uncomfortable shoes, the long days, the miles of walking, hours of standing, the conflict. i miss the days that were so hard i could physically feel myself getting stronger through it. i miss playing with the only kid in the whole world i like, macaya. i miss running around with his squirtgun and playing spiderman with him. i miss playing soccer with everyone. i miss "birthday fridays" and having the pinata parties. i miss sitting around and talking with the most amazing people on the planet. i miss gina. so much. i miss how much everyone LISTENED and appreciated eachother. i miss getting ready in the morning and how it was ALWAYS the funniest experience. i miss staying up late. i miss hanging out at night with just the staff. i miss the orphan kids and their faces when they saw us. i miss the kids who helped us hand out food to houses who gave up their entire day and walked miles and miles just to be with us. i miss the day after the team left and we cleaned the camp and went to the grocery store to stock up for the next week and just relaxed. i miss sundays, when the new team came in and we got to meet another bunch of amazing people. i miss fridays when we went to the pool and dunked eachother :) i miss going out to dinner with the new team on sundays nights and having lime fights. i miss the desert. i miss joya soda. i miss the little dog, taco. i miss the entrance to the camp and crossing the river to go in and out. i miss going to the local tiendas. i miss everything. i cant believe how easy it is to get out of touch with the people who were once your world. i know that probably means nothing to you, and you probably stopped reading a fourth of the way through. but the memories from that month in mexico mean everything to me. im excited for erica to come back and tell me all the stories, but i know its just going to kill me. i know youre sick of hearing about mexico :) i'm done.

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